IF I DIE TONIGHT

IF I DIE TONIGHT

If I die tonight what would I want you to know,
If I lost my life tonight where would you go,
If the darkness came for me where would my light show,
Blood of my veins but does my love flow,
I guess I want you to know my heart is tied to yours,
After you it closed all doors,
You got the ceiling and I need no floors,
It is for you alone I got no more one mores,
If the life left me there is no need to stay,
I would never to ask you to live that way,
But Just once you know what I have to hear you say,
I will look down and trust I know baybay,
So if the darkness takes me just know the light will shine,
And for an eternity only you will be mine,
I will wait for you on the other side,
But live life just save that little part of you that we said was mine,
And trust my love will flow with the rain,
That’s just me trying to wash away your pain,
So break away from it because I leave no chains,
God will send another to take those reigns,
So If I die tonight I want you to know I did not go,
So let the light show and go with the flow,
Because My Love will watch over you Blow for Blow,
And God will take you and the right way he will Show.

By: Carlos ‘Los’ Lightsey

Free verse

Trapped in a mind of sin,

Got me asking how Lord can I win,

How can I get past me,

And look for the way you want me to be,

I just don’t understand how,

And at times I swear it’s got me down,

But you tell me lift that head up,

Because you got me; you never get fed up,

But the devil out here trying to get me with the set-up,

And he just waiting like a voice box; cause you know I’m going to hiccup,

But you are there to help me hold my breath,

You tell me; you got me in the life after death,

But these burdens I swear they way down on my chest,

I need more strength to study this so I can pass the test,

I want that grade; I need that A,

I need your help; I need your Grace,

So here I am; Here I pray,

Hoping here in my heart; you will stay,

So forgive me for my past transgressions,

I know this seems like an obsession,

Or maybe it seems like just another session,

But in truth this is my faults my confession,

I am weak without you,

I will break without you,

My future is bleak without you,

I can’t get on that winning streak without you,

So here I am on the platform,

And this voice box is getting a little warm,

I’m ready to try and scream your name,

I don’t seek riches, glory in life, or even fame,

All I want is the truth of your words,

Anything else seems to much, too absurd,

So in a since I digress,

This is my passion of Christ address,

So take me below that water and let your blood run through my veins,

Because I want the best, I am tired of the same.

 

Help ST. JUDES needs YOU!!!!

Hey if anyone would like to help us with this cause hit me up.  http://utd.stjude.org/loslightsey

 

We are looking for team members and groups to start new teams. There are prizes that teams and individuals can get and win. Also there is a big prize for the college that raises the most money. any help you can provide is good. No help is to small.

 

Thank You,

 

Carlos ‘Los’ Lightsey

 

Message me if you want more info. or if you would like one of our representatives to come speak at one of your meetings.

Cancers of Stress

It was settling, calming, coming to a stand still,

Life was getting easy, should have known too surreal,

Thunder came, and down came a shudder and rain,

A chill ran down the spine, and the world brought on the pain,

A family broken by drugs and a conqueror of greed,

A busted love, A busted heart, one defeated sent to knees,

Screaming in vain, filled with blame, praying for a better change,

Going insane, feeling drained, wasted youth oh what a shame,

How can the progress in this house made of stone,

Burdens of family stressed, how can they move this along,

Without courage and strength, are they destined to fail,

Surrounded by screams and chants of words like “go to hell”,

Outside hope, they see as their only way to prevail,

But the only contact anymore is via text, call, and voice-mail,

Because stranded in a search for a better life, is their hope,

All wishing it would come faster but life just says nope,

But their hope, as fast as he can, continues,

Till the day he’s able to come back to the rescue,

So they can move on to the best of life’s happiness,

But until then this family suffers in life’s cancers of stress.

 

By: Carlos Lightsey

Fact # 15 About Me- What being a Lightsey Means:

What being a Lightsey Means:

L eadership
I ntelligence
G enerous
H elpful
T ruthfulness
S acrifice
E ngineering
Y ou

Leadership: Being a leader but knowing when to follow.

Intelligence: Learning new ways to be better at all aspects of life while accepting criticism.

Generous: Showing a smile to the world and using good manners.

Helpful: Lending a hand to those in need.

Truthfulness: Being truthful and honoring your promises and your word.

Sacrifice: Giving up a little to achieve more and being smart about your life. Ex: if you can’t afford a Benz buy a cheap car good on gas, why go in debt over a car that is no better than the cheap car when you are only buying the name. Use your head and budget your life.

Engineering: Be creative and build something useful with your life or make your life useful. Immortality is achieved on through doing something worth remembering because we all will pass one day.

You: And finally be you in everything you do. If you can’t be you then you can’t be anybody. Adding a little bit of yourself into everything you do makes it unique. We don’t need duplicates.

 

Side Note: This is actually good stuff for everyone to follow. I try to do my best at everyone of these. This is how my name wraps into my personality how does yours?

It Found Me

I can feel the love around me,

In fact it’s quite astounding,

It’s a rhythm of the heart Pounding,

Full of close ties it’s bound me,

A flood of happiness drowns me,

Wings of trust won’t let’em ground me,

But friends till the end surround me,

Not to serious we out here clowning,

But a community of love call it towning,

The fact of the matter is its truly resounding,

If falling it is in the allowing,

Then like basketball we will be rebounding,

Got to love the love cause its louding,

Turning it up so join the crowding,

And accept it smiling and proudly,

Because it’s not in the finding but in the knowing it found me.

Random Thought Poem/ Woman

So you always here girls say or post things about the guys they want so I figured wth I will post one lol.

I want a woman who will call me first when something goes wrong,

I want a woman who wants what I want,

I want a woman who will smile when I smile,

I want a woman who will sit and talk for a while,

I want a woman who in truth is a friend,

I want a woman that will stand by me till the end,

I want a woman who will listen instead of argue,

I want a woman who excited says I do,

I want a woman who on her best day stays humble,

I want a woman who will get back up if life makes her stumble,

I want a woman who loves to laugh,

I want a woman who can live beyond the past,

I want a woman who will cherish being a mom,

I want a woman who will dance with me everyday like it was prom,

I want a woman who beside me can cuddle,

I want a woman who for doesn’t feel she settled,

I want a woman who supports me through it all,

I want a woman who understands even a man takes his falls,

I want a woman who will accept my love and hold onto it too,

I want a woman who will give me a hug and whisper I love you,

In the end I just want a woman who is there for me,

Because if I got that woman she would always know for her I would be.