Free verse

Trapped in a mind of sin,

Got me asking how Lord can I win,

How can I get past me,

And look for the way you want me to be,

I just don’t understand how,

And at times I swear it’s got me down,

But you tell me lift that head up,

Because you got me; you never get fed up,

But the devil out here trying to get me with the set-up,

And he just waiting like a voice box; cause you know I’m going to hiccup,

But you are there to help me hold my breath,

You tell me; you got me in the life after death,

But these burdens I swear they way down on my chest,

I need more strength to study this so I can pass the test,

I want that grade; I need that A,

I need your help; I need your Grace,

So here I am; Here I pray,

Hoping here in my heart; you will stay,

So forgive me for my past transgressions,

I know this seems like an obsession,

Or maybe it seems like just another session,

But in truth this is my faults my confession,

I am weak without you,

I will break without you,

My future is bleak without you,

I can’t get on that winning streak without you,

So here I am on the platform,

And this voice box is getting a little warm,

I’m ready to try and scream your name,

I don’t seek riches, glory in life, or even fame,

All I want is the truth of your words,

Anything else seems to much, too absurd,

So in a since I digress,

This is my passion of Christ address,

So take me below that water and let your blood run through my veins,

Because I want the best, I am tired of the same.

 

ST. Judes We Need Your Help

Help ST. JUDES needs YOU!!!!

Hey if anyone would like to help us with this cause hit me up.  http://utd.stjude.org/loslightsey

 

We are looking for team members and groups to start new teams. There are prizes that teams and individuals can get and win. Also there is a big prize for the college that raises the most money. any help you can provide is good. No help is to small.

 

Thank You,

 

Carlos ‘Los’ Lightsey

 

Message me if you want more info. or if you would like one of our representatives to come speak at one of your meetings.

Cancers of Stress

It was settling, calming, coming to a stand still,

Life was getting easy, should have known too surreal,

Thunder came, and down came a shudder and rain,

A chill ran down the spine, and the world brought on the pain,

A family broken by drugs and a conqueror of greed,

A busted love, A busted heart, one defeated sent to knees,

Screaming in vain, filled with blame, praying for a better change,

Going insane, feeling drained, wasted youth oh what a shame,

How can the progress in this house made of stone,

Burdens of family stressed, how can they move this along,

Without courage and strength, are they destined to fail,

Surrounded by screams and chants of words like “go to hell”,

Outside hope, they see as their only way to prevail,

But the only contact anymore is via text, call, and voice-mail,

Because stranded in a search for a better life, is their hope,

All wishing it would come faster but life just says nope,

But their hope, as fast as he can, continues,

Till the day he’s able to come back to the rescue,

So they can move on to the best of life’s happiness,

But until then this family suffers in life’s cancers of stress.

 

By: Carlos Lightsey

Phrase

In Weakness We stand in strength, In Fear We stand with courage, But In Love We fall helplessly, Paralyzed.

A man who won’t die for something is not fit to live.
Martin Luther King, Jr

I’m Tired

I'm tired of seein death,

I’m tired of seein little kids shot because they got no vest,

so they get hit by a stray bullet right in the chest,

or they take one right in the head,

either way they whind up dead,

and all we have to say is three words that begin with rest,

I’m tired of these kids dying from these drugs like meth,

I’m tired of lookin at life and say what’s next,

and then sittin around and sayin what’s left,

I’m tired takin life slow like it’s a game of chess,

well knight to king it’s time to put some of these things to rest,

cuz while things are like this they can never be a pursuit for happiness,

 

I’m tired of livin life in a small town,

I’m tired of feelin like the whole world’s trying to hold me down,

I’m tired feeling like a prisoner; always bound,

I’m tired of all my hope’s and dreams being rained on until they all drown,

I’m tired of never wearing a smile but always wearing a frown,

I’m tired of never feeling up cuz I’m always feeling down,

I’m tired of trying to hide and always being found,

I’m tired of looking for a verb and only finding a noun,

I’m tired of running to only be run down,

I’m tired of worrying about my ending sound,

the sound that’ll put me in the ground,

I’m tired of feeling like i shouldn’t express my feelings out loud,

I’m tired of looking for a thought and only findin a cloud,

 

I’m tired of kids steady joinin these gangs,

and in return they get lead into all sorts of thangs,

they just keep treatin life like it’s some kind of game,

and when they get busted they start lookin for someone to blame,

well if you lookin for someone to blame you only have to do one thang,

look at your birth certificate and find your name,

cuz you make your own path and only you’re the blame,

I’m tired of people not tryin to change,

this racist stuff is out; times ain’t the same,

judgin me by my color is like judgin me by my name,

the fact is is this damn stuff is insane,

so if you don’t know me don’t judge me that’s all i got to say,

so i guess I’ll go through life just waitin for a change,

just lookin for those better days,

so understand what I’m sayin help me change the game.

Brotherly Tears

As my memories fade back I can still see,

The brother I lost who never left me,

I still remember the day you had to go,

My brother gone, no more will i get to know,

I remember your smile and your dark green eyes,

I remember so much that often it makes me cry,

I remember when you used to babysit my cousin and me,

I remember the times we used to just chill under a tree,

I remember how you were always so nice,

Why should such a gentle soul have such a short life,

To die before you are sixteen; when you have such a sweet soul,

It just don’t seem right; you should’ve lived to be old,

But that’s all to late now, cuz you’re already gone,

But in a way you are still here,

So though at time i will feel alone,

I will always remember you are still with me every time i shed my brotherly tears.

‘Just Stumblin Through Life’

Sittin here thinkin bout all the things around me,

What’s makin me smile; whats makin me frown see,

My jobs got me down but not out,

And the pain in my back is makin me wanna scream and shout,

And den There’s a girl and she’s got my smile,

Hope it stays dat way forever and a while,

Cuz I need all the grins that I can achieve,

Cuz im tryna keep dis sadness and anger away from me,

So I’ll keep my head held up high and search for tomorrow,

Fuck today and all today’s sorrows,

Cuz I’ll be alright as long as I keep grindin and keep my head held high,

Just like T. I, said: I’m gonna live my life,

So until the next time you see me write,

Just remember there’s only three things worth the fight:

Friends, Family, And what you know is right.

Lost

I’m lost out here on the road,

And it seems I have No where to go,

I’ve lost it, I’ve done lost my mind,

I’ve lost the past,present,and future; I’ve lost all time,

I reach for the sky only to grab the ground,

I tried to jump up but I only fall down,

I show only smiles, but I only feeling frowns,

I’m a real good swimmer,but in my tears I drown,

Happiness I want, but for me it can’t be found,

Married to sadness; it’s got me locked-down,

They say don’t be so serious, well I’m a sad clown,

I’m like a beautiful song without the sound,

My heart still beats,but it’s more like a pound,

My pain’s never-ending, no edges, it’s round,

I tried to break free, but it seems I’m well-bound,

It’s a kingdom of pain, and only I can hold the crown,

But I guess all in all I’m stuck on this road,

And it seems that I have no where to go,

But slowly as I start to find my time,

I will slowly start to find my mind.