IF I DIE TONIGHT

IF I DIE TONIGHT

If I die tonight what would I want you to know,
If I lost my life tonight where would you go,
If the darkness came for me where would my light show,
Blood of my veins but does my love flow,
I guess I want you to know my heart is tied to yours,
After you it closed all doors,
You got the ceiling and I need no floors,
It is for you alone I got no more one mores,
If the life left me there is no need to stay,
I would never to ask you to live that way,
But Just once you know what I have to hear you say,
I will look down and trust I know baybay,
So if the darkness takes me just know the light will shine,
And for an eternity only you will be mine,
I will wait for you on the other side,
But live life just save that little part of you that we said was mine,
And trust my love will flow with the rain,
That’s just me trying to wash away your pain,
So break away from it because I leave no chains,
God will send another to take those reigns,
So If I die tonight I want you to know I did not go,
So let the light show and go with the flow,
Because My Love will watch over you Blow for Blow,
And God will take you and the right way he will Show.

By: Carlos ‘Los’ Lightsey

The Homeland’s Forgotten People

“The Homeland’s Forgotten People”

          A Nation within a Nation, We are considered lost,

But easily found are We, and a little pride would be all its cost,

          America the Proud and the Beautiful, they want you to see,

But much is a different story found upon its History,

          They tell you of the Glory; from Sea to Shining Sea,

But America founded on Death; it swims in Past Misery,

          A Land claimed to be founded by Those that are not from Us,

America the Land Survived plenty, but none were named Columbus,

          Some say we should be revered but we ask only Peace,

But Slandered throughout history, and given small land to Lease,

          America says Respect Others, but to Us they give not a Damn,

Even to its Capital Washington, We are but a Redskin Man,

          They chose to tell Us laws and manners They do not Respect,

And They hope They can leave Us behind, because all Others seem to Forget,

          This is true to an extent, but Most have just chosen to Neglect,

They say a Simple Trail of Tears is all it was in Retrospect,

          But Generations of Pain will not be eased with a Neglectful Smile,

Especially when Its Capital chants its Slur, the name that is so Vile,

          And all Our complaints are met with a False Truth of Lie’s Denial,

They say They want to end Racism, but in Fact It’s Their Capital’s Style,

          They say there was a Dream, but clearly We have been Left Out,

And Ignored are Our Complaints, no matter how We Shout,

          We, My Native People, stand Firm in all Doubt,

Is this Truly What America will have Us tell Our Kids, THIS IS ALL AMERICA IS ABOUT?

 

By: Carlos ‘Los’ Lightsey

A Picture Maybe Misperceived

let me give you a picture of my life,
it’ll give you a little insight to what it’s like,
it’ll give you just enough so you may be able to understand,
the trails and tribulations of just one man,
how will you perceive it: joy or pain,
a life in tact or a life in vain,
will you perceive it as right or a need to change,
a life out of control or one that is well-maintained,
am i running through life or am i guided by a cane,
have i lost my mind or am i completely sane,
will you lay me on the counter or will i be framed,
will your last thought of me be good or followed by the words “what a shame”,
which of these thoughts will travel through your mind,
from this picture of me frozen in time,
so just remember to never judge a book by it’s cover; no matter what you think you see,
because what you saw may very well have been misperceived.
 

What Is Music?

music is sounds that soothe the soul,
it doesn’t matter whether you’re young or old,
or whether you are a woman or a man,
it’s something we turn to when no one else seems to understand,
we turn to it when we’re happy or sad,
or even if we’re angry or mad,
we turn to it when we feel hurt or full of pain,
when things change or if they stay the same,
when we feel lost and can’t find our way,
or even when we just need something to help calm our spirit when we pray,
it’s actually funny how music seems to make things go away,
and how it soothes the soul, so we can make it through another day,
it is something that we all truely cherish,
so much that it is even played for us after we perish,
this is to ease the pain of the loved-ones we’ve left behind,
and to give them a song to remember us by,
and maybe, just maybe someday soon,
You’ll hear a sound ,a song, or just a little tune,
that will send you away someday , but hopefully not too soon,
and leave behind a memory for those you love who love you too.

‘Just Stumblin Through Life’

Sittin here thinkin bout all the things around me,
What’s makin me smile; whats makin me frown see,
My jobs got me down but not out,
And the pain in my back is makin me wanna scream and shout,
And den There’s a girl and she’s got my smile,
Hope it stays dat way forever and a while,
Cuz I need all the grins that I can achieve,
Cuz im tryna keep dis sadness and anger away from me,
So I’ll keep my head held up high and search for tomorrow,
Fuck today and all today’s sorrows,
Cuz I’ll be alright as long as I keep grindin and keep my head held high,
Just like T. I, said: I’m gonna live my life,
So until the next time you see me write,
Just remember there’s only three things worth the fight:
Friends, Family, And what you know is right.

No Sad Face

Now the rain is comin down,

The pain is pourin down,

I share dis smile, but inside i wear dis frown now,

There’s tears inside now,

In these tears i drown now,

It seems my life is full of water now,

What will i do, where will i go,

How many people will i continue to know,

Will my soul grow, or will i go,

I don’t know what my future holds,

But in the end i guess no one knows,

So i will continue on in this life,

Maybe one day, i’ll have a kid and a wife,

But until that day, I’ll keep movin along,

I’ll try and stay strong as i walk along dis road i’m on,

In this life we all share pain,

But it seems lately dis life’s done gone insane mayne,

It’s got me out here lookin for a change,

But the change i’m gettin ain’t workin,

Cuz the only change i’m gettin is hurtin,

Got this darkness behind me lurkin,

Will it go, well i’m uncertain,

But if i die before i wake, don’t let me see no sad face,

Just know i’m goin to a better place,

Just keep the faith, and I’ll wait for you at the gate,

So don’t worry, just keep livin ya life,

Cuz while ya livin yours, Ima keep livin mine.

Tired of Nice

Fuck the world, cuz it’s only gave me pain,

Splitten heads, no I been splitten  veins,

   Tried talkin to my head, but I’ ve gone insane,

Fuck the present, cuz I’m lookin for a change,

   I tried walkin the line, but now I’m off the range,

Fuck wid me get hung, picture-perfect-framed,

   I tried bein good and for that I remain ashamed,

And for the bad I’ma turn to, I accept the blame,

   Through bein the nice guy; left me nothing but this grief,

Tired of this blurred  vision; It’s so hard to see,

   Because these teary-filled eyes constantly bleed,

And now this anger’s inside tearin at me,

   I was scratch-proof, well I thought I was,

But in the end all balloons will bust,

   From time to time, we all have the air knocked out of us,

But with a second wind, no I got a second gust,

   And head strong and with a cold heart,

Will be my second coming, yeah my second part.

Inward Outlook

Pain, pleasure, and pain,

 

 got me in life going insane,

 

 the treasure that I seek is simple sanity mayne,

 

 but until then I keep my eyes open on the change,

 

 people say stay simple but that’s simple saying,

 

 Life’s hard; understanding the serious and the playing,

 

Been trying to understand the black & white but life keeps graying,

 

It is this that keeps me on my knees praying,

 

This colorful blending of the good and bad,

 

Keeps me twisted up but I wear this smile even when I’m sad,

 

I let the anger in me fade who needs this mad,

 

I take this checkered past and turn into plaid,

 

Now why you wanna be mad all the time,

 

Grab the sun because its time to turn this tide,

 

Life’s to long of a journey to not enjoy the ride,

 

Check yourself mayne and destroy this pride,

 

Cause when learn to accept what they say is unacceptable,

 

You get a whole new plug in life, a new receptacle,

 

 You get a whole new reflection that’s reflect able,

 

Because now your outward look is suddenly respectable,

 

So take your new horizon and establish your own sunset,

 

Watch the fall of your pain and the loss of your regrets,

 

Loss of your worries and all these frets,

 

Suddenly this pain you had you will forget,

 

All in all it sounds so quick to do,

 

But nothing is quick when it comes to finding what’s true,

 

It all starts when you look and see what’s trapped inside you,

 

Though your seas maybe rougher then most they can be subdued.

 

To a Hart

Broken Hart well let’s mend it,

Strong heart never offended,

They say only fear fear itself,

But that’s what they say before the put ya on the back shelf,

Hold your head high now that’s always good until ya stumble,

But what do you do, rumble young woman rumble,

Hold on cuz this a long ride,

Pain, sweat, and tears babygirl that’s life,

But strength you have so show that muscle,

Life is a liar so only trust you,

What it do that;s a question with an answer only for you to know,

But the healing ya pursued is a truth shown in growth,

So keep ya pretty Smile shining,

And stay head strong no worries here cuz i know from you There will be no whining,

So in life you yes you will always be the winner,

So this is me wishing you nothing but the better.

Irreplaceable Thing

Pleasure and Pain in the end seem the same,

Because they both become Blame,

For which we use the Excuses to Deny,

What it is we have Done or Why,

It is time for us to All take a Stand,

And Accept the Consequences like a Man,

No need to Deny what we have Already done,

Because in the End the Course will Run,

Because Believe it or Not All is Seen,

And know that there is Only One way to get Clean,

Give it Over, because Only He can Cleanse,

Washed Both Body and Soul and Re-rinsed,

Only in Him can One be Rid of Sin,

Or in the Firey Gates will One end,

So Trust in Him and grow Wings,

And let the Heart in You Sing,

Because Rejoice is a Joy only He brings,

A Truly Irreplaceable Thing.