Free verse

Trapped in a mind of sin,

Got me asking how Lord can I win,

How can I get past me,

And look for the way you want me to be,

I just don’t understand how,

And at times I swear it’s got me down,

But you tell me lift that head up,

Because you got me; you never get fed up,

But the devil out here trying to get me with the set-up,

And he just waiting like a voice box; cause you know I’m going to hiccup,

But you are there to help me hold my breath,

You tell me; you got me in the life after death,

But these burdens I swear they way down on my chest,

I need more strength to study this so I can pass the test,

I want that grade; I need that A,

I need your help; I need your Grace,

So here I am; Here I pray,

Hoping here in my heart; you will stay,

So forgive me for my past transgressions,

I know this seems like an obsession,

Or maybe it seems like just another session,

But in truth this is my faults my confession,

I am weak without you,

I will break without you,

My future is bleak without you,

I can’t get on that winning streak without you,

So here I am on the platform,

And this voice box is getting a little warm,

I’m ready to try and scream your name,

I don’t seek riches, glory in life, or even fame,

All I want is the truth of your words,

Anything else seems to much, too absurd,

So in a since I digress,

This is my passion of Christ address,

So take me below that water and let your blood run through my veins,

Because I want the best, I am tired of the same.

 

Cancers of Stress

It was settling, calming, coming to a stand still,

Life was getting easy, should have known too surreal,

Thunder came, and down came a shudder and rain,

A chill ran down the spine, and the world brought on the pain,

A family broken by drugs and a conqueror of greed,

A busted love, A busted heart, one defeated sent to knees,

Screaming in vain, filled with blame, praying for a better change,

Going insane, feeling drained, wasted youth oh what a shame,

How can the progress in this house made of stone,

Burdens of family stressed, how can they move this along,

Without courage and strength, are they destined to fail,

Surrounded by screams and chants of words like “go to hell”,

Outside hope, they see as their only way to prevail,

But the only contact anymore is via text, call, and voice-mail,

Because stranded in a search for a better life, is their hope,

All wishing it would come faster but life just says nope,

But their hope, as fast as he can, continues,

Till the day he’s able to come back to the rescue,

So they can move on to the best of life’s happiness,

But until then this family suffers in life’s cancers of stress.

 

By: Carlos Lightsey

A Picture Maybe Misperceived

let me give you a picture of my life,
it’ll give you a little insight to what it’s like,
it’ll give you just enough so you may be able to understand,
the trails and tribulations of just one man,
how will you perceive it: joy or pain,
a life in tact or a life in vain,
will you perceive it as right or a need to change,
a life out of control or one that is well-maintained,
am i running through life or am i guided by a cane,
have i lost my mind or am i completely sane,
will you lay me on the counter or will i be framed,
will your last thought of me be good or followed by the words “what a shame”,
which of these thoughts will travel through your mind,
from this picture of me frozen in time,
so just remember to never judge a book by it’s cover; no matter what you think you see,
because what you saw may very well have been misperceived.
 

What Is Music?

music is sounds that soothe the soul,
it doesn’t matter whether you’re young or old,
or whether you are a woman or a man,
it’s something we turn to when no one else seems to understand,
we turn to it when we’re happy or sad,
or even if we’re angry or mad,
we turn to it when we feel hurt or full of pain,
when things change or if they stay the same,
when we feel lost and can’t find our way,
or even when we just need something to help calm our spirit when we pray,
it’s actually funny how music seems to make things go away,
and how it soothes the soul, so we can make it through another day,
it is something that we all truely cherish,
so much that it is even played for us after we perish,
this is to ease the pain of the loved-ones we’ve left behind,
and to give them a song to remember us by,
and maybe, just maybe someday soon,
You’ll hear a sound ,a song, or just a little tune,
that will send you away someday , but hopefully not too soon,
and leave behind a memory for those you love who love you too.

No Sad Face

Now the rain is comin down,

The pain is pourin down,

I share dis smile, but inside i wear dis frown now,

There’s tears inside now,

In these tears i drown now,

It seems my life is full of water now,

What will i do, where will i go,

How many people will i continue to know,

Will my soul grow, or will i go,

I don’t know what my future holds,

But in the end i guess no one knows,

So i will continue on in this life,

Maybe one day, i’ll have a kid and a wife,

But until that day, I’ll keep movin along,

I’ll try and stay strong as i walk along dis road i’m on,

In this life we all share pain,

But it seems lately dis life’s done gone insane mayne,

It’s got me out here lookin for a change,

But the change i’m gettin ain’t workin,

Cuz the only change i’m gettin is hurtin,

Got this darkness behind me lurkin,

Will it go, well i’m uncertain,

But if i die before i wake, don’t let me see no sad face,

Just know i’m goin to a better place,

Just keep the faith, and I’ll wait for you at the gate,

So don’t worry, just keep livin ya life,

Cuz while ya livin yours, Ima keep livin mine.

Can’t Nobody

can’t nobody hear the words my soul spoke,
      can’t nobody read the poems my soul wrote,
      can’t nobody carry the burdens my soul totes,
      can’t nobody understand what my soul knows,

      can’t nobody swim the flood of my soul’s tears,
      can’t nobody surpass the knowledge of my soul’s years,
      can’t nobody capture the strength of my soul’s fears,
      can’t nobody understand the value of my soul’s ears,

      can’t nobody measure the amount of my soul’s cares,
      can’t nobody keep up with all of my soul’s affairs,
      can’t nobody climb to the top of my soul’s stairs,
      can’t nobody understand the depth of my soul’s lairs,

      can’t nobody catch the breeze my soul blows,
      can’t nobody stop the growth my soul grows,
      can’t nobody change the choices my soul chose,
      can’t nobody understand what my soul shows,

      all in all it remains a mystery of the unknown,
      as the captures above have indirectly shown.
     

Tired of Nice

Fuck the world, cuz it’s only gave me pain,

Splitten heads, no I been splitten  veins,

   Tried talkin to my head, but I’ ve gone insane,

Fuck the present, cuz I’m lookin for a change,

   I tried walkin the line, but now I’m off the range,

Fuck wid me get hung, picture-perfect-framed,

   I tried bein good and for that I remain ashamed,

And for the bad I’ma turn to, I accept the blame,

   Through bein the nice guy; left me nothing but this grief,

Tired of this blurred  vision; It’s so hard to see,

   Because these teary-filled eyes constantly bleed,

And now this anger’s inside tearin at me,

   I was scratch-proof, well I thought I was,

But in the end all balloons will bust,

   From time to time, we all have the air knocked out of us,

But with a second wind, no I got a second gust,

   And head strong and with a cold heart,

Will be my second coming, yeah my second part.

Inward Outlook

Pain, pleasure, and pain,

 

 got me in life going insane,

 

 the treasure that I seek is simple sanity mayne,

 

 but until then I keep my eyes open on the change,

 

 people say stay simple but that’s simple saying,

 

 Life’s hard; understanding the serious and the playing,

 

Been trying to understand the black & white but life keeps graying,

 

It is this that keeps me on my knees praying,

 

This colorful blending of the good and bad,

 

Keeps me twisted up but I wear this smile even when I’m sad,

 

I let the anger in me fade who needs this mad,

 

I take this checkered past and turn into plaid,

 

Now why you wanna be mad all the time,

 

Grab the sun because its time to turn this tide,

 

Life’s to long of a journey to not enjoy the ride,

 

Check yourself mayne and destroy this pride,

 

Cause when learn to accept what they say is unacceptable,

 

You get a whole new plug in life, a new receptacle,

 

 You get a whole new reflection that’s reflect able,

 

Because now your outward look is suddenly respectable,

 

So take your new horizon and establish your own sunset,

 

Watch the fall of your pain and the loss of your regrets,

 

Loss of your worries and all these frets,

 

Suddenly this pain you had you will forget,

 

All in all it sounds so quick to do,

 

But nothing is quick when it comes to finding what’s true,

 

It all starts when you look and see what’s trapped inside you,

 

Though your seas maybe rougher then most they can be subdued.

 

Your Solid Rock

In weakness one should stand with strength,

In fear one should stand in courage,

But in love one always falls helplessly, paralyzed,

Weakness is a catalyst that often changes in a blink,

Fear will only win when courage is allowed to be kept in shortage,

Love is insanity in its sanest form and cannot be categorized,

Weakness implies being weak which is considered bad,

Fear implies being afraid to live some aspect of life,

Love for this seems all wrong because it has both of these,

Being able to be weak and learn from it is how one learns what can be had,

Fear lets us conquer it and become the better form of the I,

While love takes these and changes us from the I into we,

In order to be strong we must allow ourselves to be weak,

And to have courage we must first accept fear,

And with these love is right around the corner or just up the block,

So take your weakness, make it strength so your life will no longer be allowed to be bleak,

And take your new found courage and leave your fears in the rear,

Now take these necessities and find that friend, that soul-mate, Your Solid Rock.

Join the Game of Life

Feel a change coming through,

Life’s debts have came due,

Some would say “what’s a man to do”,

I say, take a stand and stand true,

Look in the mirror and take a picture,

Do you trust what you see, go figure,

Are you scared to make a change? get eager,

It’s time to dump the past, go ahead and pull the leaver,

Because the present is new and the future is free,

Time to watch what you do so you will like what you see,

Time to get a clue, do you know who you want to be?,

Time to fall from the group and make like a tree-leave,

It’s time to finally stand on your own,

Time to accept your calling, Answer the phone,

Time to dig thru life’s rumble and build you a home,

Time to join the life, love and laughter and abandon being alone,

Time to forget black and white and join the gray,

Time to learn how to act, so you can take the stage,

Time to abandon slow and fast, let’s join the pace,

Time to accept the change in the change,

Time to break limits and get in the open-range,

Time to take that knowledge and make a claim,

And forget about who should be blamed, and just join the game.